Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Boredom and Co-Dependency don't mix

I have found my depression deepening lately since my husband moved. We talk everyday on the phone but I wander around aimlessly with nothing constructive to do. I still am not in my own house, and there is only so much that I can do in my parent's home. My little girl keeps me busy, but I lack the energy and attention span to play all day- plus she's pretty independent. I sleep as long as I possibly can, eat, watch TV, maybe get a few things checked off of my list, and then do it all over again the next day. Every minute is agonizing. I may be the only one that is praying for the holidays to get here so that my days can be filled with activity and conversation. I really do not like being alone, and I still cannot shake the guilt of not accomplishing something every hour. If it weren't for my little one, I would deem each day pointless. What a terrible feeling!

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